"THE DANIEL CORPORATION"

Sunday, October 29, 2006

do i have to say more?

Thursday, October 19, 2006

in this time of my life with absolutely soo much going on i am so thankful for the friends that keep egging me on and friends who make me feel like i have purpose in this life and friends who make life worth the living.
anyways some random thoughts from the day
i have to do it for 25 dollars cuz i promised amelia
tie your shoe and shy your toooes
make a wish and make a mish
suck your toes and tuck you soes
a levels are coming soon
also means its ending soon
i got nobody to supper with today (ish)
but tmr holds more promise
my friends have consultation tmr
we are most probably going to zouk after the prom
adrian's dad is working a deal for me (go teo!)
i should be opening a restaurant mid next year if all goes as well and jeremy khoo is a s good as his word
i laughed cuz of funny incidents after dinner, my sister almost broke a fan!
if i pull my specs low and give wide goofy grin my friends can laugh for a looong time
i might say come and finding nemo and they'll laugh more
MAY-LAY-SIA...that would be a problem
i miss my grandma
alot
making blue marks on my friends arms while they study
blue ink can actually be seen on my arm!
my colour is not an issue among my friends, but what the heck its fun to joke about being black (or dark brown) anywyas! haha..

i love me friends.
oh yes, august, bro, thanks fer setting me on the right track :-)

RUN OUT OF SALIVA

Monday, October 16, 2006

there's the obituary. i am SOO SOO proud to be on the list of grandsons. it has been an absolutely fabulous journey with my grandmother and i cant help but pity my cousins who are only 1 to 8 years old and live overseas and never really had an oppurtunity to get to know and enjoy their avva. and her cooking, oh my that glorious cooking that (i'm not exaggerating) but hundreds of people besides the family have enjoyed and still remember. man i could go on forever, and the tears could flood the world. she has been a mother wife grandmother nanny babysitter master chef confidant counsellor friend and most importantly a pillar of support and a very important element in many people's lives. to say that she is MY AVVA is such a privillege. i love you avva and i still miss you. oh yes, i took some things that belonged to my grandmother from her place:

the spice box that she used to cook dishes for more than the past twelve years

the cross stitch in the kitchen that says :grandma's kitchen kid's eat free

and the lil cookie box where she always baked cookies and served them in

the lil giraffe keychain that hung in her room

there are so many things that i could take but none could replace her and her presence.the memories linger...

where'd you go?

i miss you so

its like its been forever

since you've been gone.

PLEASE come back home.

RUN OUT OF SALIVA

Thursday, October 12, 2006

my grand mother passed away and i still cant come to terms with it or more accurately i cannot believe that she is gone. that is why someytimes i am just so numb. i cried or wailed more like it on two separate occasions, buti can only cry when there is noone near me, although my parents and cousins and girlfriend ca,e over to try and calm me down. the interesting thing is that it hits me at the most random times, even considering that i do think about my grandmother all the time, it hit me today on the train while waitin i started tearing. than on the train i started tearing. then i went to get roses for my grandmother to put in the sea together with the ashes. so yea. i learnt that one of the hardest things to do in life is preventing yourself from crying. at the ashes burial on the boat i almost cried. after i put the ashes the roses and the letter i wrote to my grandma in the water i stood outside the boat and cried a little, but quietly this time. it hurts and i really really miss her.

i think about you all the time

even though you're not here you're on my mind

and i really cannot believe you're gone

i never really thought you'd leave

but even after all this

i assume that you were ready to go

but you didn't wait to see if i was ready

i am not ready and still want you here

maybe the truth is i still need you here

would you believe the tears i've cried

or would you wipe the tears i dried

the tear stains are easiest to remove

but the hardest to forget the loss

the wounds remind of the past

but the tears remind of the gem i had

and till today i am very glad

why'd you go

i miss you so

you have alot of things still to do

that you were supposed to do

or am i just being very selfish

even though you lived a life of giving

but you still have alot of things to do

so why'd you go?

you're supposed to place a gold chain on my neck for my 21st birthday

you're supposed to meet my girlfriend

you're supposed to sit at the VIP table at my wedding

you're supposed to shave the head of my first son

you're supposed to bathe him and sing him to sleep

just like you did for the rest of us

you even promised to go on a holiday with me

you even said you'd fly with me

you promised to cook another meal for me

and you're supposed to feed me

with your very own hands

you left before doing these things for me

why'd you go

i miss you so

i cry

oh yes i cry

i never thought you'd die

i never thought it would come near you

i cant believe it when i see you

there's so much more i have to say to you

but i would love to hear from you

for now there're not much words to you

but i'll write more to you

good bye grandma

i love you

and i cant believe you are gone

i miss you

love,

your grandson

Anand A Daniel

P.S. friends, please learn to be there and not do what you think is in your best interest. do things because it comes from the heart and do things not because you want to prove a point or show anything. and be true to yourslef. and me in my time of sadness.

Saturday, October 07, 2006

the world wouldn't mean much at all without the people to make it meaningful
the roses to make it smell good
the food to make it taste good
the thorns to make it eventful
the music to make it groovy
the fashion to make it colourful
and God to make it possible.

RUN OUT OF SALIVA

and me to make it goodlookin ;-p

I type this as I just turn on the computer after a very emotionally laden day. Well the emotion was more or less the same the whole day and it seems to have changed my outlook but I will not let that happen.

Disappointment. In every single subject:
Economics-O
Geography-F
Literature-D

Disappointment and very much a trial period to see whether I would give up or not. Well I totally did not study for my mid years and I got an F for econs and geog and D for lit. Interestingly I studied so much harder and I still got only a slight change in my results.

Look on the bright side? I only just barely failed my geog which the last time I failed miserably. And econs my result has been multiplied a few times even though it is only and F. lit was better this time round except for one essay that I screwed up in each of the three papers. Well it could have been a B or C? wt the heck.

I have given an uncountable number of pep talks and motivational speeches to friends, relatives and people I barely knew. In crunch time I realized that a lot of things I said I needed to apply in my life it was just that the emotion of the moment is sometime so strong that it clouds your logical thinking. I let that happen today and wasted a day of being able to study. But a true man can admit his mistake and get back up on his two feet and start running. And that is what I am going to do.

I am also thankful for the fact that I am able to ascertain the mistakes that I made and see what I need to do to change them. I am also very grateful to the teachers who have offered their kind support and time to be there for us every step of the way. Some of us are already very near but there are some of us who need to sprint the last stretch of steps to reach there in time.

To those reading this I am sorry that this post is not entertaining at all, and well it is more o less for me to therapy myself (mind the English) and I am feeling rather more optimistic and goal oriented now that I have finished talking to myself. To those who did endure and read the whole post, I hope you take something valuable away from this and learn that it is not impossible. Whatever it is you face in life. Go to it head to head and you will emerge victorious. Hardly anyone knows the struggles I face and no I am not ready to publicize it on the www and well I am going through life victoriously (studies is not the only thing in life).

Please never ever give up and don’t forget to smell the roses along the way.
I am gonna get ready to go out for dinner with the groupies. So sad that Adrian and Vanessa are not comin :-(

RUN OUT OF SALIVA

Thursday, October 05, 2006

hello internet land...my girlfriend changed the layout of this thing and now half of my posts cant be seen!!! and i think to be equated to shah rik khan is pretty flattering. oh well...

i am tryin my darndest to study but it seems to get harder with each passing minute and with the same passing minute the insurmountable joy i will feel at the end of the gothic paper in november gets multiplied. somehow the a levles are rated as the hardest examination and course of education to take. most of my lecturers and teachehers say that they feel the uni education is easier than a a level jc education which is rahter puccling to me as i feel that we should be intellectually stimulated at an increasing level after each stage but somehow we hit the top at jc! whoa!

but some ppl say that the only other thing that you can study in the uni is law which is more demanding than the a levels. wow. don mind the spilling errrroos yea?
anywyas just my random thoughts before i take my clothes of and have a nive loooong hot shower and then back to studyin(i hope)

RUN OUT OF SALIVA.

P.S. i hope the last bit didnt have you girls salivating?

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

i look at all the other relationships that go topsy turvy around me.
i wonder to myself how she ever found me.
more so now that she loves me.
she worked hard to trust me.
now iwant her to work harder to show me.
could she let go like me?
or am i wanting her to be me?
when i look at her i see me.
with the five kids beside me.
i will always want her beside me.
because i know that she loves me.
she wants to change for me.
noone else could do that for me.
she tries for me.
and she cries for me.

and i don't know what more i could ask for.
isabel law, i love you.

the words are not enough.

RUN OUT OF SALIVA
(never will run out of love.)

Monday, October 02, 2006

i have not posted anything here in a long time and i dint intend too until i had to come here to say smth about racist tags. wth. i really don mind people postin anything and i don't mind anonymous posts. i mean i do encourage freedom of speech so we all gotta deal with it. but damn! flamer and some other person who apparently has smth against reisha. look reisha and i are good friends and if she cant stand racism its her right to condemn you you sumbitch. i think its funny cuz you wanna make a racist remakk and not identufy yourslef.
but you gotta draw the line at talkin shit about her buttin in.

reisha and i are good friends (but after this it might as well be WERE) and she wanted to stand up for me and indians at the same time at least she got more balls then you flamer. and wasabee the things you inplied are not true and thats all i am going to say. say what you want abt me in your tags. but spare my friends unless you can identify yourself.

random things
1 whats the point of losing a friend over something to do with an unrelated person
2 is the word friend over rated?
3 if so what then about best friends
4 mt perception of my good friends has transcended alot of boundries of late
5 a friend understands
6 listens
7 forgives
8 is ready to say i am sorry
9 impleeiedish. word created yst.
10 all we do need is love.
11 savour what is in front of you
12 say i love you.it is not overrated

RUN OUT OF SALIVA