Anand's

2009-12-15T11:54:00.001+08:00

Q: What is the opportunity cost of starting to build your entire future right now?

A: EVERYTHING. Right now, at least.

2009-11-15T01:32:00.001+08:00

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DRUM & BASS. 'nuff said.

never fails to make me wonder what im doing in skool. and OH for the love of the fresh air of the cliff.

2009-09-04T01:28:00.002+08:00

they say every dj has a playlist of the moment.
i never thought i did.
right up till now.
an electro mixtape of break.

it rained for the last three days, and now that the sun is out, i feel like im drowning

2009-08-04T15:37:00.001+08:00

you have no idea

2009-08-01T02:02:00.002+08:00

Its 2am, and i happend to stumble across isabel's cousin's blogs. its unfortunate that i got better acquainted with them over such an event as the wake of their grandfather.

but something struck a chord deep within me - seeing them remember their grandfather so joyously and nobly i think it served as a reminder to me. a reminder about what's really important in life.

what was a greater msg to me was how they glory and rejoice in God amidst trying times. smth i need to restart.

all in all, i will remember how when i visited him at the hospital he said that definitely remembers and recognises me - and even reiterated the first time that we met. i wont forget that wither - he had on a very sincere smile when i tried my best to wish him happy chinese new year in mandarin. a man much respected and missed.

cheers in heaven, sir.

2009-07-23T14:21:00.002+08:00

To all those who have forgotten the ones who have been there for them in their darkest moments, I have a word of advice for you:

DON'T.

2009-07-19T01:17:00.000+08:00

Two hunters are out in the woods when one of them collapses. He doesn't seem to be breathing and his eyes are glazed.

The other guy takes out his phone and calls the emergency services.

He gasps: "My friend is dead! What can I do?" The operator says: "Calm down, I can help. First, let's make sure he's dead." There is a silence, then a gunshot is heard.

Back on the phone, the guy says: "OK, now what?"

2009-07-07T23:39:00.002+08:00

someone. anyone.
its not easy. not at all its so tough
i know why people get jobs i know why its sweet to go to 'the office'
should i be worrying about all this now
by right im too young
and by left i am responsible
so where does that leave me - pull out of school?
isnt it just pathetic how...
pathetic, its just pathetic
reliance
reliance is pathetic
dog eat dog world hunt to eat kill to live
survival at the expense of another
so what is it REALLY that im chasing
what do i really want
what am i going after
at this point in time, if actions are fuelled by desire void of direction
what then

oh yes, im just 21

2009-06-22T09:33:00.000+08:00

No.
Not now. Not now, pls.

2009-06-07T23:43:00.003+08:00

ok so this is me being thick skin and hoping that i can get whats below for my birthday this year:

HP Pavillion 3V entertainment series (parents getting)

iTouch

A big ass-and I mean BIG- crumpler bag (cashmere blazer, fuz deluxe, complete seed ect)

Oakely polarized flak jacket / XLJ or Oakley straight jacket (white chrome and red)

Hi cut nike dunks

Nike / Addidas work out attire

Crocs Athens II

Canterbury Rugged shorts & ionx compression pants

Black leather formal shoes

thanks alot i love you

2009-06-03T23:43:00.002+08:00

There are times, when it just saps out your emotional strength
just thinking about it, and your mind plays a horrific reel of possibilities that saps
saps - interesting word
it sounds like the sound of your energy getting sucked out (if you emphasize the 'S')

And then, you reach deep within yourself and
a certain calm prevales
a Strength far superior takes over
and you can do nothing but feel secure

they tell you not to lose hope and to have faith.
but what in?????
and don't say yourself - because then you never would have needed to have heard that in the first place

i thank God for God.

2009-05-26T00:28:00.004+08:00

it says
"do not fear"
in the bible, 365 times.

that's one time for each day of the year.

"...though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death, i will fear no evil. your rod and thy staff, they comfort me.."
"...only with your eyes, shall you see the reward of the wicked..."
"....you are my God, in whom i WILL trust..."

"for God so loved...He gave..."

2009-05-24T17:57:00.000+08:00

i wanna wanna give wanna do kool things

2009-05-20T01:29:00.001+08:00

pls God.
Thank You
Anand

2009-04-17T01:34:00.002+08:00

1.35 AM
sittin at the com
eating a stack o' choc chip kookies
drinking smth sweet
party tmr
drinkin more...sweet stuff?
late nights
sugar cereal for breakfast
piles of white rice for meals
choc cravings
junk food

it comes to an end this week.

after a 5 week hiatus im back at the gym. back to it. that which was lost will be restored.
this is the dektos year of the Lord.
so be it, unto me.

the rest of ya'll, how does the dust taste?

2009-04-08T15:49:00.001+08:00

time to change my new year resolution
some things in life not worth fighting so hard for

but there are others
you would lay down your life for

for that, give it all

2009-04-01T02:15:00.005+08:00

2.15 in the morning, hard at work at the computer.

I feel that familiar sense of ignition -
the allure of power and control,
the cool wind of isolation
on a mountaintop.
knowing that noone else is on the ascent
but me
and my team.
one flag pole and a flag
flying high,
the cold wind a distant after thought.

rocketed down
to trade up and begin another climb
raise my own flag
a tumultous economy
an uncertain dark grey sky
the waves rise high
but i have my surfboard
the dark night surf is comforting
as is the lighthouse i have one hand on

the ever burning fire inside
the trip in a week to a chamber so heavy,
souls shudder at any movement
an ordeal so intense,
pain is but a vacant entity
the increase,
the reward,
the flexion of pride

the purpose of a mission
only i know of
the course of action and the steer and its lasso
control and controlled

break free
I am victorious.

2009-03-02T10:57:00.002+08:00

School starts in Australia, and (not for the first time) it will have an impact on me, here's 2 of some of the people I'm gonna miss
Chyi, im gonna miss you. Nthn much else left to say..

Raj, im gonna miss you too. Cheers. And for some reason we look delirius in this photo. On the highway to drunk! Hahaha..

Cheers

2009-02-23T17:21:00.003+08:00

They say that life isn't measured by the number of breaths you take...
But by the moments, that take your breathe away.

The moment took my breathe away, alright. And the doctor wanted to hook me up to a ventilator for it.....

I trained hard for 7-8 months, by some astounding turn of events, got thrust into the sport of Strongman a mere 3 months after I started lifting weights seriously. 10 months to the day that I first did a full ATG squat, a deadlift and a Bench press, I signed up to take part in the Singapore Strongman Challenge 2009.

I knew I could flip the tyre, I knew I would complete the farmer's walk, and I knew that moving the rhino would be easy.

I came early and watched alot of failures. Lots of men and boys of all sizes took a turn at the implements, but hardly anyone moved the tyre an inch. KC, one of the first few to actually successfully flip the tyre was inspiring. I pushed that all out of my mind and filled it with the positive thoughts of flipping the tyre 8 times. The fact that the tyre weighed in at 260KG didnt really bother me cuz I didnt think it that far off from the 24oKG tyre i practiced with.

I chalked up, tightened my belt and bent down to the tyre to get ready. The whistle was blown and I flipped the tyre over easily once. The second one was equally effortless and I was in the zone. My body was working seamlessly with the instructions from my mind. My supporters were ecstatic. I slammed down the tyre again and went in for that damned third flip...

I got it up half-ways, and left it to balance on my left thigh while my right foot supported all the weight. I lavished a second to turn to the left to look at Yoshida's progress, surprised to see him still at the starting point, not having moved the tyre at all. And then it happened..

I felt a large snap in my right knee and my leg just buckled under me. In the shock, I let the tyre go, and all 260 Kilogramms of it came crashing down on my left leg. All I could think of was the searing mind numbing pain piercing my right knee. I screamed for some sort of relief as I realised how I failed myself. Miserably.

I couldnt help the tears, tears of intense pain coupled with disappointment as I was wheeled off in the ambulance. All my expectations came to crashing halt.

An injection, an X-ray and some pain killers and inflammation retardents later, I sit here with my legs propped up, awaiting my specialist appointment in a couple of weeks.

Thank you God, for healing me.

And thank ya'll for the well-wishes and support.

I leave u with a picture:

2009-02-15T23:22:00.001+08:00

10 solid consecutive reps of 140 kg Deadlifts, 8 days out from the Strongman Prelims.
Enough said.

HomeTeamNS Singapore Strongman Challenge 2009.
Bring IT!

2009-02-12T20:23:00.001+08:00

its almost 9 pm. I still havent had dinner and im going to drop of a special delivery to 2 clients before 11 pm. im tired and im hungry. business is incredibly fast paced and the week kas flown by. NS seems like a hazy distant memory, but in actual fact i ORDed only less than 2 mths ago! Time seems like unceonceivable concept. dinner time.

2009-02-08T20:18:00.001+08:00

is there really a problem?
or am i over-reacting?
every.____ing.time.

2009-02-05T01:52:00.000+08:00

wooooot! thats a 100kg log in each hand, a 240kg sled and a 250kg tyre. i like.

2009-01-22T23:00:00.002+08:00

Consistency means training when you're supposed to, not making lame excuses to watch TV or head to the bar. More than any other sport, bodybuilding / strongman / olympic lifting requires a serious level of commitment and dedication. If you can't stand the heat, get out of the kitchen.

Sometimes I just wished I had more people in my EVERYDAY life to keep me motivated amd keep challenging me to push harder, lift heavier and monitor my progress. Tell me when i'm moving up and slap me when im slacking off or trying to skip a meal.

But what I do seem to have in abundance is people who keep saying "you're getting too big...", "when you gonna stop..." or "wah..you're crazy man.." or "i think you'll look scary..."

If i want to progress anywhere do i simply surround myself with those with positive comments? Hard cuz i only train with the Team Iron Behemoths once a week. And also cuz I love alot of the negative comment issuers too much. Hahaha..the irony of determination and drive. Lazy people will never understand.

Just so I make myself clear...i dont care what people say or what you say or she says or he says, I'm not gonna stop lifting, I'm not gonna stop getting bigger and I am neveer ever going to back down. if you have objections to this - I'll show you where to shove your comments. No disrespect intended.

This is just the beginning, you ain't seen nothing yet. I'm Just 81.7 KG.
160kg deadlift 130kg squat for 9 reps 80 kg bench. Numbers that are only gonna go up. fast.

2009-01-22T11:27:00.002+08:00

Thank you Dr Chee. You have my respect and utmost support. God Bless.

2009-01-20T12:37:00.002+08:00

Rich people who did not work for their money are the most calculative. Its a fear that it'll all go away as easily and/or mysteriously as it came. If you're reading this and feel offended, then, HAHA! You feel like that cuz its true.

Don't mind me..a random thought and observation.
Time to get a new mobile phone.

2009-01-14T12:09:00.000+08:00

easy.

2009-01-09T12:50:00.002+08:00

"In the night I hear them talk,
The coldest story ever told,
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul..."

its 2 0h 0h 9!
When I finally went back to my blog i realised that alot of significant things happened from the time I last blogged. And on a side note, the post below about the birthday card IS isabel's hacking prowess in action.

I ORDed!! 17 Dec 08 was every bit the emotional journey I had thought it will be. The joy that washed over me was overwhelming as I held back the tears in the lift ride down the admin building. In a sense, ORD for me was a milestone which spelt the end of 2 years of drudgery attached to obligation. 2 years of being told what to do, not being given space to explore or innovate, not being able to utilise your own mind or have thoughts of your own, being incapable of independant actions. Above which, i am sure alot of you know my dim view of authority.

But there is one thing i have to say (in case the gov is reading this) is that I sincerely respect the men and women who give their lives (i didnt say gave their lives), but give their everyday lives to the defence and the idea that singapore is a safe and protected country. I indeed, salute you.

3 cheers for my cousin Vimitra who just got engaged, though i was hit by a tinge of sadness that not all the immediate family could have been in singapore for the occasion.

My year ahead is very much packed, thoughts of an enterprising individual can be far from glamorous. Lesont turned one recently and we are expecting a very good year for 2009. Its hard work and alot of effort and the work hours can stretch waaaay beyond 10 hrs a day..
but its worth it.

all in all, I thank God for a great 2008, and I look forward to God's abundance in 2009.
Happy new year to one and all, and God Bless.
Cheers!

2009-01-05T12:52:00.002+08:00

ANAND DANIEL NEEDS TO DO UP ISABEL'S BIRTHDAY CARD ASAP BECAUSE IT HAS BEEN WAY OVERDUE SINCE 16TH NOVEMBER.

P.S. isabel didnt hack my account. i wrote this myself

2008-12-04T22:09:00.002+08:00

It was awkward. I'd been dreaming of this day the moment I enlisted. The day when I would walk out of my office for the last time.

But I was sad. When the realisation that I'm never gonna see my office that's stuck-in-the-middle-of-the-jungle sank in, I was really overwhelmed. Its quite hard to explain, considering I want nothing more than to ORD real quick.

Its most probably the friends that I'd made over the 2 years. And also the memories. Some bad, some good, but they will all stay with me nonetheless.

I am indeed, sad to leave 149 SQN, The Fighting Shikras.

Oh well. On a lighter note, I am on leave till 15 Dec and I ORD on 17 Dec, so its time to PARTY and WORK! businessbusinessbusiness..

2008-11-24T00:50:00.002+08:00

Anand blogs again! ahahaha...

I am insatiably in love with Tiesto's Clublife Podcasts. Its actually not very easy to make people feel a certain way without any lyrics. And well, he does that with finese. Armin Van buuren too, but he is less artistic-in a way.

I am currently drunk with the heady wine of the nearing ORD. My gosh can I smell it! I've been trapped, exploited and taken advantage off for 2 years! (no, I'm NOT a POW). How can i not be elated that i'm gonna leave?

Though there is gonna be a tinge of sadness when i leave dear OLD Paya Lebar Air Base.

Oh well..to all of you: GET TIESTO'S PODCAST! YOUR LIFE WILL NEVER BE THE SAME!

2008-11-21T00:11:00.002+08:00

what do when you've left some DNA on the barbell?
haha..i looked up huffin and puffin and realised there was some 'dark lines' on my shins. looked down to realised there was a 'lil line of blood along the shin bone-line. heavy deadlifts do that to you i guess.

ISABEL to NOTE: the bar is to move straight up , NOT on a TANGENT!! the vertical axis is not to move, hence the occasional scrape of the shin. Don't worry, you'll only wipe the skin of your shin if you lift heavy. like me.

call to arms by angels and airwaves.get it now.

2008-11-17T00:14:00.006+08:00

happy birthday isabel!!!
i dont want to talk abt the birthday party here too much (and all the planning)..
just look it the pictures. those of you privilleged enough get to see the more...(risque?) photos on facebook.

2008-11-13T00:10:00.001+08:00

And I'M the jackass caught in the cross fire.
After all I did for you ungrateful brats.

'ohmygod is he talkin abt me!?!'

2008-11-12T00:45:00.002+08:00

not all friends are created equal
what's the air freight gonna cost
what themes and what itenary
audit ready?
party ready?
birthday ready?
there are things that you put into your body that will kill
sleep seems like an afterthought
operating at 150%
max out-for people with limits
those who can't, dont. but, those who can, do.

keep sprinting.

2008-11-02T22:11:00.005+08:00

and that's am introduction to what went down at bob's place..alot of pictures are missing, mostly cuz i spentt a good 4 hours at the hospital with a dear guest who passed out after drinking and coated the kitchen floor with blood. helloween indeed.

that incident aside, the party was great..glad that the ghouls who attended loved it, and the hostest with the mostest was satisfied.

thanks to all who came-it was one to remember.

oh yes, this marks the opening of bob's bar. cheers.

2008-10-31T01:55:00.002+08:00

i just returned from bob's crypt (as it sufficiently looks like one now), after 2 hrs of decorating. i have a gooood feeling abt tmr's halloween party. those of you who've rsvped-show up! and those of you who received special invitation - show up too!

those of you who were unlucky ehough not to get invited, have fun smelling costumes at whichever corwded place you chose.

it feels like i've ord-ed already!!!!! though i have 46 days to go :-(

look forward to the pictures!!!!!

2008-10-27T23:02:00.002+08:00

Because everytime I hear a sappy song, I think of you..
Because I just cant do anything else..

Many thanks to Bob, Andrea, Tricia, Shen, Chyi Lyn and the others that I forgot to mention for the help and advice. Being tgth for 31 months does really mean something, and I don't think I'm gonna let it go just like that. I was pretty much at fault for the build up to the blowout in our relationship and I think we've settled it in a mautre and mutually beneficial way. (isabel, you were at fault a little too!) ahahahaha..

I love Isabel. And its gonna be like that forever.

And her BIRTHDAY is coming soon. Meaning I've to get to doing her card, buying her present, deciding where to take her, planning planning planning. Oh well. All in good time.

On the note of parties, its halloween! To all of you going to a too-crowded place to smell each other's constumes, cheers and beers to your bravery! I, on the other hand, have a phonecall meeting scheduled for later to plan THE halloween party at Bob's new BAR!!!

Given my current levels, party is not a word i need to be using too often either. The screwed diet and 10 days fo no training due to my wisdom tooth extraction (and laziness too) took its toll this sat. A poor showing with a new tyre (nonetheless) and a impending regurgitation had me down pretty quick. i love using rugby to train our endurance! ahaha...

once upon a time...the word bro used to mean something.

ciao.

2008-10-08T21:54:00.003+08:00

As taken from the Team Iron Behemoth Website ( you will find the link on the left of your screen)

" Team Iron Behemoths guaran-damn-tees our members that we'll get them ready for the HomeTeamNS Strongman Challenge 2009 - and we always live up to our guaran-damn-tees.

Here's a small preview of the potential candidates to place well (at least Top-30) in next year's Strongman Challenge.

Below are some of the tyre flip (250kg X 10 flips) timings for our session conducted on 06 September 2008:

And this Saturday, 04 October 2008:
"

2008-10-07T00:10:00.002+08:00

it feels great to have moved close to 5500 kilograms in one work out.

1 X 2 125kg full squat
3 X 3 120kg full squat
3 X 20 40kg walking lunges (and this really sucks you out. i just added this in cuz i need more endurance)
4 X 8 300lbs calf press

Strongman trials are less than three months away, and its all starting to take serious shape now. I am aiming to outdo myself (meaning till then, my timings improve every single session) and get in the top 25.

As I eat my boiled eggs now, I look back at my training and I really thank God for the protection. We know the risks that we take when we unrack the bar. And considering I train alone, I am really really thankfull for God's unfailing protection. (I have gotten pinned under the bar while benching twice - and i was alone) I also thank God for strength, for the past 2 mths, I have gotten stronger each and everytime I stepped into the gym, and no, I am not on ANY form of synthetic substances (steroids ect). It is by God's grace that I am seeing improved performance and reception to training. I also thank God for the people I train with on weekends.

Training with the best in Singapore really has its advantages. To all the members of Team Iron Behemoth, I salute you, Here's a shout to Sam, Keith, Vinod, KC, Jen, Ben, Jordon aka Ghost and Ryan and the newest member, Shiqi (the first female too!) I just halved my personal timing on the tyre flip to 1min32secs. got to get it under 50 secs before Strongman 09. The Behemoths will own it. And as we say, thats a Guaran-damn-tee.

Here's another shoutout to one of the best in Singapore, Elton Lim! 2007 under-21, under 70kg National Bodybuilding Champion. One chest training session with him last friday and I'm already seeing improvements. Thanks for answering my never ending questions and being so forthcoming with help and advice! Cheers mate!

To all who read this, GET FIT! Its a decision you will never regret. I am not just advocating strength sports or bodybuilding. But i have to say this : FAT IS UGLY! You cant do anything about your face, but you sure can lose that damn fats! Start running, swimming, resistance traning , the options and variety is limitless. www.bodybuilding.com is chock full of information on fat loss, so get busy!

There are alot of things on my mind now, none are slowing down enough for me to inscribe in sensible fashion. But for the grace of God.

2008-09-17T00:13:00.002+08:00

3 cookie club baby!
3 reps nonetheless. Hoisting 140kilos felt rewarding. Towing a 235kg sled (ben included) was an experience, considering the 200kg sled didnt budge the last time. Looks like the rhino will be cruising next jan!

Let's hope, that contrary to popular belief, the therapists at CGH sports med know a thing or two. i've got a load of questions about postural alignment, thoracic mobility, gluteal firing, muscular activation and shit.

Lotta things floating in my mind nowadays. Strength training, eating right/enough, Wine, Tuition, Church, Security, NS, ORD in 90 days, time with my girlfriend,Friends I havent seen in ages, My Brother, and my Mei(s).

Love, ya'll.

2008-09-09T22:49:00.002+08:00

Puke inducing.
No, you infidel, I was not referring to politics here.
I was referring to training intensity like none other.

Another tyre flip session at Hong Lim park left me with skin abrasions on my anterior delts. Again. Small price to pay when you set a new personal record. First set of ten flips, puke breakfast and the previos nights' too-big-for-own-good dinner. Then I lay there flirting with quitting telling myself "I'm done for the day". A little reminder from the other guys got me back at the tyre flipping it for another 2 sets of 10 and then a few more flips thrown in for good measure. I'm nowhere near where I wanna be with my timings and technique, but rest assured, I will.

It lay there taunting. A standard oly bar with 3 cookies a side. 140 kilos in all its regalia. After the brutal flips and my liquefied breakfast lying in a ditch, something stirred up in me as I reached for the bar. "3 plate deadlift man..."

But I just couldn't get it up. Guess the flips took it outta me. but the hardest part was walking away knowing that I have what it takes to get it up. Maybe even more than once. No, scratch that. DEFINITELY more than once.

This sat, I will deadlift 140 kilos, and I will do it more than once. Hasta LaVista (or smth like that)

2008-08-28T09:55:00.004+08:00

Sung to the tune of "If You're Happy and You Know It", an original composition

If you really wanna get big
Lift heavy
If you really wanna get big
Lift heavy
If you really wanna get big
And you're not on any steroids
Then you really gotta eat big
'N lift heavy

But if you really are on juice
And you know you are synthetic
You can stick to baby weights now
Just suck it up!

- Anand Daniel

I was at XXXXXX gym (near my place, I wont name it to avoid legal tussels) the other day, I only go there when I have a day off from work (and going there on legs day is pointless cuz they ain't got no free squat rack)

But anyway, there I was, assaulting my delts and traps, when I spied the dreaded PERSONAL TRAINERS. There were 2 of them, A and B.

A was taller than me, with decent sized muscles, still smaller than mine, I'll proudly say. And B was shorter than me and skinny, and he walked with a friggin' slouch! Only God knows why anyone whould hire him! Anyhow, A was training another guy, let's call him client A, who looked about my age or a year older (from the way they moved I assumed that Client A was there for mass building). B was training client B, who was probably in her early 40s (at least she looked that) and like all the rest like her - wanted to lose fat.

What transpired in the gym as I began my workout both shocked and disgusted me. But before I delve into what went on, let's fast-forward to the end, just before I leave. A & B had finished messing around with their clients before I was done, so I walked up to them and asked them if they were personal trainers.

They said 'of course'. They also went to say "of course" to the following questions: Do you take up more cleints? Do you do mass building training? Do you give nutritional consultation ect?

Now when they so confidently answered these questions, I couldnt help but feel that these people were being cheated! And the best part, they charge SGD $120 for 4 sessions! $30 for an hour of cheating! I can only imagine why people were forking out that sum.

Here's why I feel this way:

We begin with Client A. You know he wants to get big, at least he's got all the right accesories! He's got the black tee shirt on, he's got a sleek trackpants on (I don't understand how they associate that with bodybuilding, but they do) and *drumrollpls* he's got some new-fangled Gloves, with 'breathing fins' nonetheless. And in the 30 mins that I saw his 'Trainer' take him through the paces, I DID NOT SEE A SINGLE COMPUND MOVEMENT. I mean, seriously, that day, I saw the mother ship of bicep curls. He had him warm up with barbell bicep curls. And then, they moved to the cables. A hooked up the low pulley cable and got him doing standing bicep curls. The damn trainer didn't seem to mind that his negative movement (when you're straightening out your arm) was really quick, Client A was letting gravity snap his arm back out again. And after 10 reps, he started cheating! He was leaning back and using the momentum each time to get the weight up. And all this while, damn trainer A was encouraging him! He even brought a little step for him to stand on, and do the bicep cable curls! Following which, they went over to the dumbell rack. He got client A to pick up 2 light dumbless, bend over ( and his trunk was curved) and do lightning quick bicep hammer curls (at least they looked like hammer curls to me from where I was standing ). He was swinging the DBs up really quickly, and trainer A joined in with a pair of DBs as well! I was incredulous. I wanted to interject, but hey! He isn't paying ME is he?

You know, what, I'm gonna stop here. Because talking about Client B makes me feel sad for her, and Trainer B should be charged for fraud. Rather convincing scam they run there. trainers, anyone?

2008-08-26T00:04:00.005+08:00

All hail the arts king!!!!! Congrats Jon Ma!!!
And that was a glimpse of NUS FASS ARTS BASH 08. It'll get better next year I'm hoping.

adios.

2008-08-20T00:31:00.002+08:00

haha! so we have a hater. i welcome you with open arms. Well to me an added plate on the bar is a step forward, irregardless how it pales to what others' lift. so yeah.

anyhow, the tyre flips have left with the skin on my shoudlers torn rather gruesomely. what began of as a little abrasion quickly gave way to a big wound as the skin tore due to my constant movements. this is how it came about.

this is how it began. the iron behemoths now train at hong lim CC at clarke quay due to rouse skippin the country. but the afternoon started off with ben egging me on to the log press. "just do la..." quite easy. at least till they loaded the log. then with shaky arms and legs i started to set my first PB. sucks when you know you have the strength and neuro muscular ability to churn the contraction but your muscles aint used to the new move. not to mention, the sheer size of the log compared to an oly bar. after shredding my shoulders and arms with static holds and supp lifts I EYED THE TYRE.....

3 weeks prior i flipped the tyre for the first time for a measley three reps. and this time, considering i was shacked completely from the log presses, i approached the tyre cautiously, planning for another 3 "just to try". what began...still puts a smile on my face. it took me 4 tries to get the tyre up the first time (it weighs 265KG btw). and i slammed it down happily. the next 2 i grinded out and V said- c'mon man, youve clearly got 2 more in you. so i catched my breath and flipped it again.4. now sam and keith had their interest piqued. "come on man...you got one more!"

so i huffed and i puffed and i flipped it again!5. "i think you got a few more man", keith made an observation. "i think you gonna keep going", sam interjected. so i slammed the tyre. and flipped it. again.and again. and again. and again. at 9, i thought i was gonna collapse.

and.then. sam said - think of someone you really love. someone you really really love, and this next flip is for them. AVVA. my grandmother, who passed away in 2006. i knew that if this was for her then there was no way i was gonna walk away without flipping it again. i tried 4 times, and the tire just didnt move. i pulled everything inside and just thought of one person as i drove my shoulders into the tyre, my legs pushing against the floor, my fingers grabbing the grooves and my heart punding, i got it up. i stopped at the top without slamming it down cuz there were tears in my eyes. i dont know if it was from the sheer central nervous system shock or...the driving force. i walked away feeling like i could do more. wishing she was still here. the power of love.

2008-08-15T19:11:00.003+08:00

They say that a bodybuilder's best friend is knowledge. knowledge knowledge and more knowledge, i mean you seriously cant have read enough and watched enough. Im far from where I wanna be. Im just 80.5 KG now. well. no juice so wait lorrrrr

And your greatest enemy - temptation. temptation to skip that next meal, or throw away the bottom bit of tuna in the can. temptation to give in to laziness to mix that last whey shake for the day at 1 AM. Temptation to throw away the five eggs that are tasteless and hard and yelllllloowww. I tell you, there have been so many times ive to force myself NOT to puke. bleagh. Temptation not to eat more no matter how much you know you need another 2000 cals.

Temptation even with the iron, to skip the last rep or to cheat on it. Or to stick to the same weight for three weeks and not to budge the reps. Heck, even the temptation to go light and stoke up the reps to get the 'pumped' look albeit for awhile. Temptation to add another plate and sacrifice form just to 'look good' (ironic.)

The temptation even strikes before, finding excuses to skip the days' work out, was my throat feeling sore in the morning? Temptation not to go for the work out citing pointless excuses that convince yourself. NOT. The lifestyle changes that kinda pinch you now. the sacrificed late nights.

No more alcohol. Its been more than a month since i had a drink, and i dont miss the drinks at all. I just miss that special 'connection' when you're drinking with your friends. the parties, late night proch sessions, drinking games, oh man. Sometimes the tempation comes as a lil thought creepin up saying ' so what if those androgens go over to the E-side' or ' so what if the protein synthesis is inhibited an stops completely for a day'. sigh..

Its not easy man. Not at all. But hey...im doing good man. at least on hindsight, nonetheless. And the greatest support i have right now, my parents. Cuz they buy me whey. and there's no whey i can afford whey on the miserable scraps the air force hands out. not when a quarter goes to the behemoths anyways.

but its worth it. because you cant argue with strength. and greatness never came to men who took the easy route.

GREATNESS. ITS YOURS. TAKE IT.

I WISHHH....
but heck i aint on juice. so..

2008-07-30T23:05:00.002+08:00

Its got me really disgusted. The local fitness 'industry'. I wouldn't go so far as calling it an 'industry' myself. Considering the half-brained poseurs that make up what the general public view as an 'industry'.

Peter Rouse said it right. If all the juiced up wanks at PF and CF ect were PASSIONATE about strength & conditioning and bodybuilding and nutriton, then Singapore would be at a much higher level by now; and let's not even bother comparing with North America. And personally for myself as well, there isnt a day where I dont try to learn something new about the sport and dieting (this word has been misrepresented to a level it warrants a lawsuit) and absorbing as much as i can.

But what sucks most is the damn LIES, like:

protein powders can make you fat
thermogenics make your fats disappear
eating less will make you lose weight
if you go to the gym you will get huge (i wish)
squatting is bad for your knees
muscles will turn to fat as you grow older (HAHAHAHAHA)
girls will get huge muscles if they work out
gyms are only for guys who want to be 'buff' (varying definitions for the word here)
joggin can make your legs bigger ( i heard this today)
jogging is the BEST way to lose weight (if it was THAT easy....)

Its seriously retarded. Hard to think of another word for it. Your best friend in getting fitter is KNOWLEDGE. It is POWER. Screw the personal trainers that do no more than tell you which machine to sit on. The only PTs worth trusting are the ones willing to refund your hard earned money if you dont get the results (because they know their stuff). I myself have spent hundreds of hours researching and experimenting; and I havent even skimmed the tip of the iceberg! Its like that people. I just felt like ranting.

P.S. FAT IS UGLY, IT IS DISGUSTING AND IT SHOULD BE A CRIME! DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT NOW!!!! im not going to say you're fine just the way you are, because you're not. the face you have is fine (less plastic surgery, there aint nothin you can do abt it). BUT YOUR FATS ARE NOT- BECAUSE THERE IS SOMETHING YOU CAN DO ABOUT IT! call me for help.

2008-07-28T20:58:00.002+08:00

sentosa with the peeps was a blast and a half!
though i came 2.45 hrs late
and was endowned with a bruise measuring roughly 8.5 cm2 .
i lurrrrved it. and lets do it again and again and again.

i know now what it is to squat 0.1 tonne. and i lurrrrve it.
i know what its like to flip a 265kg tyre. and i wear the battlescars with pride.
and i finally broke the barrier, weighing in at 80 KG now.
i will only get BIGGER, STRONGER, BETTER.
there's no stopping this.

2008-07-15T23:19:00.003+08:00

some things in life are worth it. you just gotta do what you gotta do. discipline, determination and SACRIFICE. and i've made up my mind to make the sacrifice. its gonna shock some of you, and heck, its even shocking me. but my eyes are on the prize. and i KNOW i will reach it.
bust my ass. more. frequent/correct input. sufficient regeneration. knowledge accumulation. meeting with like minded people.

GREATNESS.ITS YOURS. TAKE IT.

be·he·moth /bɪˈhiməθ, ˈbiə-/ [bi-hee-muhth, bee-uh-] –noun

2.any creature or thing of monstrous size or power: The army's new tank is a behemoth. The cartel is a behemoth small business owners fear.

I'LL TRANSLATE THE A/M SOON.

2008-07-10T00:16:00.001+08:00

GO HERE AND READ THIS NOW!! I DONT THINK LKY IS VERY HAPPY....

http://sg.news.yahoo.com/afp/20080709/tap-singapore-politics-rights-justice-ib-06f3cb7.html

2008-07-07T23:45:00.003+08:00

of the pictures taken on my birthday, that was probably the tip o' the iceberg! haha.. it was great. i'm..i'm actually at a loss for words ( which will shock some of you). you, know, for the first time, I didnt give a hoot about what I did for or on my birthday. I didnt expect anything, I wasnt excited, and the only thing I was actually looking to was finally not being 'teen'.

i felt alot of love though, which was really probably all i wanted. the gifts were nice too, and i really, really liked em all:

braun buffel leather and silver namecard holder
a portrait of anand daniel by Isabel Law
a PSP Slim from my bro and friends
bespoke graphic design t-shirt, "Flows" by Gillian Lim
bottle of Johnnie Walker

but what really mattered were the people. we didnt do much actually, they came to my house, and by they, i mean:

AUGUSTINE
ISABEL
GILLIAN
JON MA
J.KHOO
GOBI
ALDEN
PEILIN
REGINA
JAEL

and me momma cooked a really really ass-kickin indian dinner which my friends loved and then we sat around my house, moochin till one in the morning, which is when jeremy (who came late) finished his dinner. we then trodded down to some bar to knock back some. and then we hung around talking and laughing like nothing else mattered for a loooooong time. and then (for the third time in my life i think?) we went to watch the sunrise! it wasnt as spectacular as some of us were expecting, nonetheless, to spend the whole night and morning with people you love. it really is something. it really is. i love you all. THANK YOU VERY MUCH. i am filled.

Curtain Call

2008-07-02T21:56:00.003+08:00

sweat streaming down my face
the wind in my hair
adrenaline coursing through my veins
my shoes pounding the asphalt
endorphine taking me higher
my heart racing faster

a body of water on my right
lush greenery on my left
the occasional junkie passing by in a blur
the blue sky above
overtaking the clouds in vain
an explosion of sunlight-a setting sun

the memories that move like a river
lazy.steady.uninterrupted.
and like a log i watch it all pass me by
the heaviness in my heart disappears
the tears have no place anymore
the regrets are forgotten
stress finds no solace in my mind no more
i force back thoughts
businesswinemarketingeventsmeetingsNSoffleaveovertimelatenightsstressphonecallsemotions
but they trouble me nought

the sweat streams with determination
i clench my fist tighter
i lift my chin higher
i widen my stride further
i harden the pace faster
i hear my breath louder
my vision goes by blurer

I lifted it all UP as I ran for the last time as a teen.

2008-06-29T23:30:00.004+08:00

someone said that business is easy.
someone said that working with others at the top is easy.
someone said that its all peaches creme and then some.
someone lied.

but i will survive i will come up on top and I WILL MAKE IT HAPPEN. only by His grace.
its been on my mind alot these past days, it even was there during the weekend. BUT it was a goood weekend.

aug and i booked a chalet at east coast and prepared a pretty good gourmet BBQ menu for the peeps. no processed shit, we marinated real meat.kudos to us i guess. the girls said they liked it and i suppose it wasnt too bad. im a tough critic that way.

im still thinking about it. guess the hardest part is when business is personal as well. argh.my birthday in four days and i dont feel a thing. God help pls.
chrs.

2008-05-26T22:40:00.002+08:00

The course you accept

NUS - Arts and Social Sciences

has been registered

by the Joint Acceptance system

on 26 May 2008, 10:38:46 PM

Thank you.

****************************************************************

Thank YOU, LORD. It is by your Grace.

2008-05-06T21:13:00.002+08:00

I'll be your distraction.
I'll be your distraction.
There's a field near by, with words written in stone.
"My love will not die; please let it be known."
This place is dead, it echoes through town.
There isn't one voice.
I havn't heard a sound.
The planes flew in; their bombs did too.
The city fell flat; the fires they grew.
When the smoke comes in, it'll color this town.
But I'll still have you, so I'll say it out loud.
I'll be your distraction.
I'll be your distraction.
The friendship we made, is a waste of our time.
There's no one left here, to show a future that's kind.
It's a world of hate, gone incredibly wrong.
We cared too late; we just followed along.
And the boys went down, with a gun in their hand.
Their weapon of choice, their knees in the sand.
If that field near by, was still there to be used,Would you ever have known, those words were for you?
I'll be your distraction.
I'll be your distraction.
I'll be your distraction.
I'll be your distraction.
I'll be your distraction.
I'll be your distraction.
I'll be, I'll be yours.
I'll be, I'll be yours.
I'll be, I'll be yours.
I'll be, I'll be yours.

-distraction by Angels and Airwaves. dedicated to the memory of the both of you..

2008-05-03T14:38:00.002+08:00

i never thought 5 words could cause so much pain and bring forth so much tears.
will we ever get over this? will the move forward be with much looking back?
the memories are priceless..the quiet nights. the booze on the terrace, the movies in the family room, the privillege of walking around...knowing every member of your family and being recognised by them.
feeling home and welcome and just enjoying the company..
its not a break up, its mass destruction.

nonetheless i love you.
only those closest to you can hurt you beyond description.
after all this, all i can say is : OUCH.

turn back the hands of time please, please, please....
please?

2008-04-17T21:30:00.000+08:00

'NUFF SAID

2008-04-15T18:45:00.002+08:00

NO!!!!
its just not right ok? don't...you're having all wrong reasons!
i know the feelings you have now are justified and based on your rightful grounds. but thats not the solution! come on...you know all the feelings were real! and you know the feelings are still there! its just covered by a layer of frustration! so pls...

rmb when we were sitting down on the floor drinking with crushed macs wrappers around in your room i said this feels so right and correct and it should always be this way.
it still is.
and you know it.

2008-04-10T00:25:00.003+08:00

memories make bloody good toys eh? just wind back the grey matter and let the rusty spools play in B&W all those stories you were saving for the grandkids that are materialising (atleastforthetapereds)..

seriously, memories can screw around your mind you think back to an old friend or smth and full of fond memories you like send them a text smiling to yourself abt the good ol days and then the reply comes: "who the $%$# are you!" so then the rusty spools kinda get a reality check.

then you know the kinda memories that flash really fast when you see an old acquaintance in the distance. and its not like the memories are of that person, but the life you used to have when you knew that person. like back in primary school or smth?

memories can screw your mind..lets not even go to the west end where memories of your step-brother blowing out the brains of your mom's latest boyfriend cuz he slapped her and now the lil sister is in an asylum cuz all she remembers is the .45 going BANG!

you know some memories come and sock you in the nuts when you see the girl you had the hots for strolling down the street with some guy whose biceps are big enough for a bunch o kids to play ring around the roses..nevermind that the girl was from 10 years ago, heck now you remember why you liked her in the first place.

wanna good mind game? all you need are 2 pieces of equip for the screwy game. 1 memory of someone you hate. 1 memory of some good ass friend. 1 bloody brain (now majority of singaporeans cant play.damn!) imagine having forgiven the person whom you hate when they did-the-thing-that-made-you-hate-them-in-the-first-place. now imagine the good ass friend robbed your girlfriend/boyfriend. LET THE GAMES BEGIN. and dont come crying that i didnt warm you.

this for someone special" i think its got to do with scrwy memories that cause mobile phones to display the wrong name on the wrong text and send out old texts on its own accord like a bloody machine come to life. i heard the cube was squashed in trasnformers or smth right?"

now what the heck was all of that!?!

2008-04-03T19:53:00.003+08:00

this song is for isabel law:

Yeah, my girlfriend takes me home when I'm too hurt to walk
And she doesn't get all jealous when I hang out with the guys
She laughs at my dumb jokes when no one does
She brings me cards from her heart just because (Yeah, just because)
And my girlfriend likes flowers and chocolates
And she's so smart and independent,
I don't think she needs me
Quite half as much as I know I need her
I wonder why there's not another guy that she'd prefer
And when I feel like giving up
Like my world is falling down
I call her at 1am
She's still up waitin for me,
I envision her pretty face
It takes me away to a better place and

I know that everything
Everything's gonna be fine

Yeah, my girlfriend takes stupid calls from my camp
And it doesn't seem to matter that I'm lacking in presence
She laughs at my dumb jokes when no one does
She brings me cards from her heart just because
And when I feel like giving up
Like my world is falling down
I call her at 1am
She's still up waitin for me,
I envision her pretty face
It takes me away to a better place and

I know that everything
Everything's gonna be fine
I know that everything
Everything's gonna be fine
*********************************************************************

well....its kinda like josie by blink, i just twerked the lyrics. but the point is- this song says exactly how i feel. anand daniel heart isabel law. 2 years flies by when you're having fun.

THIS IS AN INSANELY GOOD PRODUCTION*

2008-03-10T22:25:00.002+08:00

standing on top of a bare mountain. the very top with nothing above, nothing but the blanketing clouds with the ominous dark shades that threaten nought. the water that falls down in sheets washes away anything that needlessly stands in the way. futile attempts to cling on to invaluable people are suddenly stark and loud. and reality sinks in as the rush from a lightning bolt fills the empty void. the only other living is the green at lower levels. dying plants with roots exposed-unable to hold on to what they know might have kept them alive. letting go without a choice. letting go but still surviving. still green and still stadning upright against the rain.

the rain keeps pouring and it outstays its welcome. it always was. i lift my eyes and open them. spread my arms out wide and the wind blows in every which direction. the drops pelt down faster and harder and fail to move me. it fails to move. that which once sent coursing down with the white washed streams flowing from the peak has been exhausted. nothing moveth now. all is in perfect still. absolute calm, with the wind howling and my hair dripping.

despite everything- i stand humble and victorious. And Know that You are GOD.

2008-03-05T21:44:00.004+08:00

okokok!!!! yes i agree its getting boring here. fact is-i only go to my blog cuz i got links to my friends' blogs here! haha..

as i take a moment to ponder what to write (edit: mentally scans other blogs in search of what to write) i rmb that everyone writes about what they've done, what went wrong, what went right, what they just bought, what they just ate ect ect ect..i'll try my best yeeah.

its march already! can you believethat! seems like yst i was playinf PS2 at chyilyn's house counting down to a newyear and getting a wee bit tipsy. and then visiting people for chinese new year and enjoying long breaks. and then valentine's day. and then raj left.

yes, on that note-my cousins are disappearing. i've not seen asha,tini and anand samuel (yes,i;ve a younger cousin called anand) who are based in texas in the longest time; 3 years i think. i havent seen raveen whos staying with them for more than a year. i haven't seen my cousins jared,candace and justin in years too and they live in colorado. and there are the canadians dhiraj, varsha, anjali and sonia who have all definitely grown 5 centimetres since i last saw them. i am thankfull for the ones that are still in singapore. i love them with all my heart. and i miss the ones that are away. (it was a wonderful surprise that my cousin vicnesh came by with his wife and son-MY NEPHEW- last week from down under. we have to learn to count our blessings and that indeed, was a blessing.

back to the subject! its march!!! a sixth of the year has passed. and even as i type this i realise that its gonna be the weekend in 2 days time, and while it is a good thing, it also means that the 22nd of april is coming soon. for those of you who know, i am very thankful to God for the oppurtunity that has presented itself. yet again i am in awe of Him. and so very gratefull.

and hence that leads to me being vey busy. thats where the word BUSIness comes from. isnt it? and yes- i am also very grateful to isabel for being very patient and understanding and tolerating. once again im reminded why its so perfect and why we are together.

amid all the hustle and bustle and 2 months plying by and work going by in a blur and mas selamat escaping, i think its important to find that quiet in your heart. be it the job you have, or the projects you're involved in, or the commitments you have to keep to, i think when you reach deep down, you'll realise that money and status and clothes and cars and things and things and things dont matter anymore. but deep down you'll find people. people who've found their way there. the place where once you reach you stay forever. and thats what is important-the people you love.

if i were to make a list of the people that i really miss right now, it would be long i supppose and it would be puposeless-for now at least-. but the crux lies in the fact that the list exists.

AH! okay..that ends a..(tries to find a word for it)..?weird post. if i lost you and didnt make any sense and you are more frustrated that you wasted time reading this than always coming here to find nothing added,i am sincerely sorry. but hey! you asked for it..
meanwhile...letme leave you with this:
CAUTION:SURFACE IS HOT.BLEAGH

2008-01-22T22:04:00.000+08:00

I LOST MY PHONE RECENTLY.
I LOST ALL MY CONTACTS.
PLS CALL/SMS ME YOUR CONTACT DETAILS ASAP.
MY NUMBER'S STILL THE SAME.
THANK YOU.

-ANAND

2008-01-09T19:33:00.000+08:00

EVERYONE'S BLOGGING ABOUT NEW YEAR.

pictures are worth a thousand; dont they?

then i guess the one you just saw sums up everything.

love,

me.

2007-12-27T17:39:00.000+08:00

my pastor once said this very apt statement: how stupid can someone be and still breathe!! ahahaha..wouldnt that go to describe alot of singaporeans very very well? or am i just being judgemental?

take for example: this girl who goes on and on about how her friends mean so much to her and how she feels so special because of them and how they mean so much to her (wait, didnt i just say that?) anyhow, you see, she says all this while all along knowing(but not believing) that the FRIENDS talk about her behind her back. use her constantly as the second fiddle (hey..it applies to girls as well) look down on her and stab her in the back--and get this--and twist the knife.
wth!! or maybe....love is blind.

or is it one of those it feels so wrong but it feels so right kinda things.you know...hanging on to relationships that are headed for a rut.smoking cigarettes. binge drinking. bigamy. feelings...what an undefinable word. i'm tempted to go on...but i might say things i'll go to regret.

hey! thats what the internet is infamous for aint it? creating regret. (cue: tammy nyp)

OH WELL ALLS WELL THAT ENDS WELL...

2007-12-26T14:55:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY!!!!
heck christmas came and went and its been great. just great. and just because some of you are so willing to come here and read this, i'm gonna put up one picture. (too lazy to put up more)
and no, this isnt the reason why christmas this yeat has been so much better than the past 2. teehee...
argh..too lazy to type anymore. pray for determination for me when i log on to blogspot.com next.

i love you all.

2007-12-23T19:33:00.000+08:00

its been forever since i last posted and...i must say alot has happened that gives me reason to keep smiling.

as VIRTUALLY EVERYONE is saying it, 2007 went by in an unstoppable blur (i wonder if i'm the only one glad about that) and now its christmas!!!! for me christmas has always been an extreme - it's either really really good or its terribly screwed up. the last two were dismal, to say the least, but i have a very strong feeling this one's gonna be mind blowing!

parties...so many so little time! haha..but more important is the phrase 'what dont kill you makes you stronger' and i think each time the end of the year -for me- is a reflection. a reflection of how i've grown stronger, and how i attribute all this to the Absolutely Amazing Grace of God. and i'm so thankful..especially for the people in my life. and for learning how to let go, which for most part of my life, i've not done very well. learning how to right wrongs, and kearn from mistakes.

wait..its christmas so posts arent meant to be loaded! hahaha...well well.. i guess i should talk about merry stuff:

isabel birthday was a great success (ididitcuziloveyouhoney)
parties since then were great
my unit function went well..surprisingly! ahahaha
bob's party was sweeeeeet

and well, reddotmuseum tmr ect ect...
its gonna be great.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! I LOVE YOU ALL..

2007-10-16T21:27:00.000+08:00

CANT BUT HOLD ON

Somehow a year’s gone bya lot has happened and a lot has changed
Despite that some things will stay the same
And that’s us wishing you decided to stay

You’ve made a journey to a better place
Unlike the many you made while here
The countries you’ve been to
The lives you’ve touched
Define a legacy we’ve etched in our hearts

Its easy to say you’ve gone to a better place
But while you were here, this was a better place
They say you never really know what you’ve got till its gone
But I know that you loved me
And I love you too

Even as a boy, when I was so small
Avva would carry me and I’d feel very tall
I know my cousins will agree
That when Avva was around there was never a frown

And as I grew older
Avva became even cooler
She saw my pierced ear
And said the stud should’ve been bigger!

She changed with the times
And I’m always proud to call her mine

You’re definitely the best
Compared to a lot of the rest
Words just aren’t enough
To describe that special love
That I find hard to find anywhere else

The warm smile
With the shiny gold tooth
The wide open arms
That also served the very best food
The listening ear
That was always available
The legacy, left behind by a legend

It’d be nice to have you for awhile longer
But, alas, some good things come to an end
I thank God for being able to call you my Grandma
And from your place of perfect bliss
If you heard all of this
I’d like to say I love you, Avva
We all do.

-ANAND A DANIEL

its been one year..and i still miss my grandmother so much. and i still wish she's here with me now. i read the a/m poem at the memorial service at my unclee's house and had to pause abt 3 times to compose myself. dammit even before i started reading the poem i almost started crying.sigh*

2007-10-08T19:09:00.000+08:00

i think everyone has those days where they just feel down trodden weak and vulnerable on the inside and a longing for liberation from the current state. no its not because of the army (i finally learnt to deal with it). but today..today i feel like i've been hit with a ton of bricks. even my workout today was bland. i wasnt even thinking as i pumped. it was mindless. not as always but my mind wasnt there. i've been frowning alot today. thinking. wondering.

but on another note, perhaps adding to the way i'm feeling now.

today is officialy 1 year since my very dear grandmother passed away. it just seemed like yesterday. i remember the day so clearly..running to the mrt station at the airport. walking to the hospital. pacing up and down at the lobby not wanting to go up.

feeling so blank when i eventually did.
and the next night at the funeral. stading next to the coffin. resting my head on it. thinking. wishing. wishing...it could have been different. why? why? why? questions..and alot of wishing.
and then it hit me. my grandmother.my AVVA.. gone for good and i think to myself that she could've been around to watch me grow up. at least for a little bit more. and then it hit me. and i cried.

and thinking back a year this time. my friends. that word had a whole different meaning back then huh? people were different. we were different.i needed them and they were there for me. it was a period of time where nothing else mattered if only for that half hour they were there. august, isabel, amelia, vanessa, jon, j khoo. all standing around me. no smiles. looking at me and averting their gaze to the ground. painfully. haltingly not knowing what to do. after all we spent so many good times together and loss wwas smth we hadnt learnt to deal with yet. the quick hugs, "i',m sorry"

friend's support then was important. not because they made the grief less. noone could do that. not even now. but they did smth important. they took my mind of what had happened and they made me realise i still had alot that was close to my heart. the only things that have ever been close to my heart were people. and i dont think that it'll ever change. God made me that way. and i'll be forever gratefull.

if only the friendships lasted huh? a year ago and after some good things came to an end.
but if there was anyway that i could have my grandma with me for even just a moment more. i'd do it. i'd do anything.

but heck. its always easier to say that she's in a better place right?
I LOVE YOU AVVA.

-your grandson, anand a daniel

2007-09-25T18:37:00.000+08:00

1.5 years
547.5 days
13140 hours
788400 minutes
47304000 seconds

and thats the rough equivalent of how long isabel law jia'en (pronounced kai lan) and i have been together!! haha...
gosh..the amount of things the both of us have been through together! she has seen me through the worst times of my life and smiled with me through the best. you know as i look back i see how much of a blessing she's been to me in my life and well i'm pretty thankful to have her as a very dear friend, on top of me being able to say with pride that shes my girl.

alot of people who've known me for a sufficient amt of time have agreed that i've become alot milder than i used to be. and well..if you're one of the people who's known me you'll realise that me becoming milder is very very very significant. well well well...i've learnt to love.

and to those who look at this and think its been a large bed roses all this while. well the onle plausible bed of roses are the ones i've bought her over the course of our rship. but the fact is that the thorns for every rose were there. we've had many many multiple arguments/fights/tiffs/disagreements/friction call-it-what-you wnat-aye that have in not all occasions brought us closer but they certainly tought us alot of precious lessons. and well..thats good. isabel likes thhis phrase " only if a rship is tested in the fire it will come out stronger". welll..its true to a large extent (excuse corniness bleagh) the rough stuff have brought us closer and made us stronger not just as a couple but as individuals as well. and i'm thankful. oh so very thankful.

and to those who feel confused now cuz it seems like for every rose in the bed has so many thorns.. thoughts runnin in your head-"oh my for every sweet thing they have they have multiple problems!!!"
nonono...its not like that. if you pay close enough attention to detail you'll realise that on the stem of every rose you'll find thorns.but even if you cut out all the thorns it still isnt bigger than a small fraction of the flower itself!!!! and thats whats important. let the thorns teach but remember the roses and keep the love alive.

isabel, i love you. and i want to thank you for putting up with me and loving me. chindian couples rock man!! hahaha...(cue:rupen and jas clap*clap*clap)

here's to the next 1andAhalf centuries!!

teehee...babe dont get angry wif the kailan joke. ;-P

//THIS IS MOS DEF A BRILLIANT PRODUCTION

2007-09-20T18:19:00.000+08:00

but i'm stil tryin and that more than i can say for him...

wel wel wel..isabel and i fell ill practically at the same time (oh how romantic) and i think my english here is pretty err garbled right now but what the heck. see i went to visit her on monday after swell gym session and then tuesday when i woke up i felt crappy so i went to see the doctor and i went to work on wed feelin like crap and since there's a new S1 and i need to show her the ropes i stuck around all day . all the while feelin lousy! mighty nice eh? anyhow i skipped gym. i guess i know what is overdoing? but well...because i detest the long qs at polyclinics albeit the free services heheh...
but i went to a private clinic near my place and the mudha1234 charged me 42 friggin dollars!!! screw that asswipe doctor who was like dressed in a polo t and cargo pants! how bloody unprofessional can you get! te dammed receipt was a piece of paper with 42 HANDWRITTEN!! and he gave me a shitload of CHEAP medicine that i didnt even ask for. bloody antibiotics and painkillers and flu nedicine and lozenges just for a bloody fever.right. i know its the cheapest shit arnd cuz thats what the give at polyclinics. but thats ok cuz in polyclinics its virtually free so you dont complain. SOB.maybe i'l write to..

oh well..ISABEL I'M NEVER GOING TO VISIT YOU WHEN YOU'RE ILL AGAIN!!!hahaha..

guard duty was a J O K E
in other news.darianne left. haiz..for london that is. was quite emotional seeing her leave..well we werent best of friends but i have known her for 6+ years and seeing shoboy cry when she left was kinda touching. we all kinda mellowed for a bit after that. well well well.

//THIS IS A BRILLIANT PROD

2007-09-09T17:50:00.000+08:00

SUBTERRANEAN DREAMING

chris is with 2 girls.they just finished drinkin and dancin at zouk and they make their way to the main road to get a cab.oh yes, chris was ther with another girl and abt 5 more guys. forgot to mention that somewhat useless fact.

so well u know that friday nights with andrew is pretty packed and the beats are hot in phuture? yeah, you know it.. anyway i dont think bumpin and grindin in the us of a is similar to that in spore. i mean we literally bump everyone next to us and grind everyone, without choice.anw chris happened to hit into a malay guy while dancin but thought all was cool.

back to the main road...

"sigh..where's the cab"
enter malay guysX2 and malay girl
"eh this the guy right"
push chris...
"ya! this the guy"
the 2 maly guys punch chris randomly
chriss falls to the grnd
one maly guy kicks chris's face HARD
ANAND DANIEL runs over.
"c'mon guys..stop it"
"you wanna fight also you ****er"
"no look.just.."
i never complete my sentence cuz he kicks chris's face again!
oh ya by now chris is flat on his back on the road.
"oh no! chris is bleeding"
anand daniel bends down and uses his body to try and shield chris and uses his arm to cover chris's face.stupid malay boy punches ananddaniel's arm.
"enough dammit!"
chris isnt moving and is unconscious
"oh shit"
daniel checks his pulse.his hearts beating. examine his face.large cut on his eyebrow face swollen blood all over no reaction from victim.
kind white stranger runs over.
both of us carry chris over to the pavement.
daniel places chris upper body on his lap and cradles his head and lifts it up.takes out handkerchief and presses it tightly to the gaping wound. gets blood on shirt too!hahah...
white boy shouts to the crowd asking for cologne finally a girl steps forward with a small bottle. we manage to revive chris but hes sustained a concussion and cant respond.
"no point calling an ambulance"
"get him into a cab and to a hospital now!"
finally chris's fiends wake up to help.
whittie and daniel carry chris to a cab and place him in.
"keep the handkerceif pressed to his cut all thw way"
"ohh...ok"
push another fiend into the cab slam the door and ask the cabbie to speed.

the malays escaped in a speeding cab that night.
all this really happened in the fri that passed.
i was there.
i tried my best, shouldve reacted earlier.damm.
gave my statement and contact to the cops.
his friends are serious bollocks.

i remebered myself at east coast.
though i didnt bleed.

consolation nonetheless.

good productions are hard to come by//

2007-08-28T18:16:00.000+08:00

" what motivates us?

what makes us decide?

is there always an ulterior motive in the things we do?

do we do things for ourselves or for others? " -Raveen Mannar, August 10 2007

what he said got me thinking and i came up with this quote of my own:

WITH THE RIGHT MOTIVATION ANY MAN WILL DO ANYTHING

do the africans not run 50 kilometers every day to get water?

did not the mother lift a car to save her child?

did not the actor give part of his liver to save his wife's live?

did not the firefighters rush into a building about to collapse?

did not untold numbers of soldiers die meaninglessly in IRAQ?

did not the USA govt hold back information from us?

did not the people go silently into the night?

were not voices in s'pore that screamed out silenced?

were not the punks ridiculed?

was not skateboarding made a punishable offense?

were not lyrics censored?

someone out there had the motivation to enact each and every one of the above statements. the statements vary in importance. i will not equate a soldier's life with skateboarding for such is sin.

now ALL of the above statements have a few things in common. damn, i could come up with alot more...statements, that is. but see in every one of those statements, someone is being victimised. if i'm not wrong each of the lines show a group of people becoming victims. what am i tryin to say, each of the above statements represent a group of oppressors. oppressors wwho thought that what they were doing is right. their motivation varied, doing what the country said was right, doing what they believed to be for the "better good".

dammit it seems to me like they're robots in a kdrnun machine.and the one running it makes decisions based on his best interest or better, (or worse) the decisions are made to entertain him or fuel his whims and fancies.

ruidiard gulliani governor of the city of new york that once stood for hope and a new chance(i really dont give a shyt how it was spelt) became person of the year or something like that. who'll forget? who'll forget sitting in front of the television set with your mouth hanging open and just staring in disbelief as the buldings came crashing down? who'll foirget asking if thats some cheap advertisement for a movie?

it was an advertisement. it was an advertisement for the hate that thrives till today. it was an advertisement for the human spirit that will never be quenched.and it was an advertisement for all that we took for granted.

and the american govt woke up.

on the wrong side of the bed.

an unending journey to begin waging war on others.

knights in shining armour were more valient.

rudiard guliani caused the deaths of many firefighters that day because he disallowed more expensive but better equipment to be purchased. the lack of better equipment made it easier to lose more lives that day.

now what motivated him?

clinton or obama?

build the tallest building or funding better equipment?

what motivates THEM.

to all the people who's lives ended in september 11, 2001; may you rest in peace.

to the soldiers whose dog tags were placed in their mouths, i salute you.

to the firefighers, respect for people who save lives is definitely more than those who had a hand in ending others.respect.

GOD BLESS AMERICA.

thisisabrilliantproduction//

2007-08-13T21:40:00.000+08:00

happy birthday wee cheng.
a day late.
damn its been a long time huh?
decorating the chalet, setting up the stuff, starting the fire, deciding on the music.
and me being sick half the day. hahaha...it was a good time.
those of you who were there would rmb.
we're living our dreams/plans?

nah i dont think so.
but were most def getting there.

THIS IS A BRILLIANT PRODUCTION//

2007-08-10T12:09:00.000+08:00

sometimes if not all the time.

the people you chose to be around you, kinda lets you know who you really are.
you'll never completely object to someone's lifestyle and still hang around them.right?
that leads to you accepting their lifestyle and more than likely there's gonna be a fraction of that person's lifestyle in yours as well.

now everyone most probably is affiliated to multiple cliques.and each of these cliques have a high chance of being defined by the fact that they advocate similar lifestyles.
and what does that say about you.

your lifestyle's components probably vary. i would guess 4 major components and 3 minor ones would pretty much define a person's lifestyle.so essentially your lifestyle would be the intersection of all the different sets. that is, each cliques's major components make up a set.

i've most probably lost all of you who're reading this now and well this is more of me thinking aloud. one last random point, a subset.
a set within a set, and a clique within a clique. what defines it?
differentiation.outcasting.backstabbing.lies.putting up a front.cheating.pretending.

NOW WHAT REALLY DEFINES YOU?

thisisabrilliantproduction//

2007-08-06T19:49:00.000+08:00

feelslikeitsbeenforever

the post below was not completed the second half was cut away.blogger sucks.

2007-07-26T19:53:00.000+08:00

ok. so there was live earth.

stats and reports kinda indicated they more or less helped kill earth a lil more.

overdose of styrofoam cups and plates, plastic stuff everywhere exorbitant electricity consumption negligeable awareness created.

i mean the only thing everyone talked about was which acts were good and which werent, the damn things supposed to make you keener about the sad state of this planet.

we can be nicer, we really can.

save water.drink beer.

that works, but for only a short timei gussess and its works for those who need an excuse to get drunk.bleagh. and on a simillar note i've tried in vain to recall a weekend that didnt involve alcohol at all, and i seriously couldnt think of any in 7 months that have gone in this year.

7 months huh?7 months have gone and so much have changed so much have happened and FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY 19 YEARS, i've so much to be thankful for.

never have i been able to look back at 7 months and just smile, albeit with a little tears in my eyes. i've told my girlfriend this and its very true, and i guess i have to share it with the rest now. but for the Grace of God i'd have been dead a long time ago.

and as much as that sounds poetic i think its very true i have buckled a couple of time under immensley daunting situations and moments in my life (some of you know what i'm talkin about) and its been hard. but i'm most definitely stronger. you are evidence.

and while on the subject of time, i've officially been together with my girlfriend for 16 months!! and two days actually...hahaha. and honestly it seems like a really short time, and my gosh, we've been through so much together! she has effectively seen me through some of the worst times in my life and i think thats what really matters at the crunch. after all this i can say:

ISABEL, I LOVE YOU.

and in one's life, what really matters is not really what you have (materially) but what you have it with. honestly the millions wont mean jack if youre spending it alone.

2007-07-21T18:49:00.000+08:00

where the streets have no name
and i am at a lost for words
and the police swarm all around
only the figments of the past become all so real
looking back
smile
thinking now
smile

and if its my fault

2007-07-17T21:36:00.000+08:00

on a lighter note

first time i've been to zouk and not taken pictures

s'pore ranking : clarke quay

holland v

simpang

ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

8thaugust jiejie and fudgie boy have to decide

this sat. what will the future hold.smilingaticipation.

i am motivated. faith works.

happy.

has no worded definition.

alley boy

this is a brilliant production//

2007-07-16T18:13:00.000+08:00

Wish i may wish i might
That i'll have some candy tonight
People come people go
Well i guess i'm a little slow
There are good weekends and there are good weekends
And then they all come to an ends
Chilli peppers that are red hot
And speed limits that can be shot

Airport goodbyes and airborne studying
Last minute notifications and old school gatherings
Baked fish family dinners aka jail break spectators
Homosexuality in french in english is an art film
Dim lighting and acquaintances with Mr, Walker, Johnnie
Oh, and the air steward/ess (s) on the other side

Early morning transforming and a beautiful afternoon face
Indecisive walks and lazy drinks on a bed
Taxi rides in the dark and Mark Hoppus leading the way
Friends in my house when i'm not home*
Pizza, metal belts, roast chicken & toycars
Hey! Ho! Its off to ZOUK we go!

Contestant No. 7 and a few free jugs.cheers.
Perhaps leaving early , like french, is an art.
Eyes popping at closed signs @ airport.
Diversions and rice.
Rooftop rock.

Sunday silence and a jury for a price.
Waiting for a departure which never arrived
Deciding to leave for no replies.
The skies opened, and then we smiled
Even though it took awhile.
Dip, dive, dodge & get rice on your pants.
Alone in a crowd.
And taking skeletons in uniform outta the closet.

There are good weekends and there are good weekends.

A bird stuck on a barb wired fence
And it was monday again.

I LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND

thispoemisaboutmyweekendthankyoualliloveditanditmeantalot.
noone will understand the whole thing, only the parts that involved you.

this is a very good production//

2007-07-09T19:55:00.000+08:00

ATHOUSANDWORDSINPICTURES

happybirthday to meiguessiloveyouall

THIS IS A BRILLIANT PRODUCTION//

2007-06-27T18:54:00.000+08:00

!!THOU ART INVITETH!!

ANAND'S 19TH BIRTHDAY

ZOUK

MAIN ARENA

DJ CASH MONEY

30 JUNE 2007

BECAUSE 3RD JULY(MYBDAY IS A TUESDAY)

10 PM TILL LATE

WE WOULD LIKE TO EXTEND OUR GREATEST THANKS TO ALL FRIENDS AND FAMILY YADA YADA. INVITATION REQUIREMENTS:BUY ME DRINKS. CASH AND CHEQUES ALSO ACCEPTED. GIFT VOUCHERS MOST WELCOME.LARGE BULKY ITEMS (LESS CARS) NOT WELCOME.

ALL ATTENDEES TO BUY ME DRINKS.

THIS IS A VERY GOOD PRODUCTION//

2007-06-04T18:10:00.000+08:00

shit happens eh?
looks like it happens all at a go so i'll just waste some emotions at one go.
it wont kill me, so looks like i'm stronger.
than you by far.
push me down and i'll blow so 4321in hard you'll die.

i'm bigger than you.
i'm stronger than you.
take your shit south.

THIS IS A BRILLIANT PRODUCTION//

2007-06-03T12:39:00.000+08:00

THIS SHIT BRINGS BILE INDUCING MEMORIES. SO SHUT YOUR HOLE.
DONE.

NOW DANCE.

2007-05-28T19:30:00.000+08:00

Your Monster Profile

Demon Fiend
You Feast On: Starbucks
You Lurk Around In: Nude Beaches
You Especially Like to Torment: Dentists

What's" Your Monster Name?

ahahaha...got that from lyndsey's blog and i think its damn cute? but pls lemme say that its damn INACCURATE!!!

oh well...i just got back from my run and there is no better sensation to make you feel good about yourself than sweat streamin down your body, and ladies eyeing you appreciatively. weekend pics details up soon. cheers.

THIS IS A VERY GOOD PRODUCTION//

2007-05-27T13:37:00.000+08:00

OF THE DEAFENING SILENCE THAT RINGS WHEN YOU WALK INTO A VACUUM ROOM, AND THE AIR IS SUCKED STILL AND NOTHING MOVES,THE FARAWAY MUSIC THE PLAYS ON A SOUNDBOX IN CLOSE PROXIMITY AND OFFERS REPRIEVE SAVE THE LIGHT FORTHE MORNING WHEN WE DONT NEED IT ANYMORE.

2007-05-23T18:07:00.001+08:00

mental heckling about the future,relationship plans ambitions goals people love life and everything.lets make more money so we can buy all the magazines with articles of the poor people in africa. lets go to work to look forward to the end of the workday.lets go throught the weekdays lookin to the weekend. lets dread the coming of monday. lets dream of being somewhere else all the time. lets live life fo someone else. lets keep thinking this will all go away. lets hope that people will drop their facades. lets keep singing that people will change. lets bury everything under the carpet. lets hide the skeletions. the doors are bursting at the seams. the carpet is taller than you.lets sit back and say they'll solve it. lets keep bitching and moaning about life.lets say friends are forever. lets run into the sunset together.lets dance and pretend all this never happened. lets smile and think harsh thoughts.lets hold a knife and think of backs. lets wish. and wish harder.lets read this together and look at one another accusatorily.

lets stop lying.
lets sit around the fire and drink whiskey.
human being.not human doing.

THIS IS A BRILLIANT PRODUCTION//

2007-05-22T21:52:00.000+08:00

I'M BREAKING BENJAMIN AND AM IN NO MOOD TO TELL YOU ABOUT THE WEEKEND BUT SINCE YOU BOTHERED TO COME HERE AND SINCE I BOTHERED TO LOG ON READ THIS CRAP.

friday-out with the girlfriend.tampines.cafe cartel.coffee.cake.home sleep.

saturday- out with jeremy amelia the girlfriend.dinner.cafe cartel.sleepy.dragass to jkhoo hse.play cs. laze around.watch tv.watch chelsea cheat. out with the dennis and vanessa. geylang. supper.

sunday-church.family.lunch.buy vanessa lunch fer bday. fish and co.walk. TCC(doesnt stand fer the coffee club).talk.drive.clarke quay.drop vanessa.eat dinner.pick vanessa.walk.drink smirnoff twist.talk.drive.talk.

i planned to have a restful weekend.i planned to not have any alcohol. didnt happen.

there it goes.

THIS IS A BRILLIANT PRODUCTION// (evenifyourmomsaysno)

2007-05-18T17:49:00.000+08:00

SINGAPOREANS ARE SO..SO...

hello world and lets take a moment to thank God its friday!!
the weekend begins now, but plans activate in T-minus 0230hrs and so for now i shall exploit my thursday night.

it all began with mt mom's hints that she wanted smth and BROWNIES at that. so i decided to be proactive and nip down to taka where they have the best brownies in the world (second to my mom's of course that goes without saying), and get them for my mom as a surprise. and here's what i learn.

how come singaporeans have not seen a number three air force kit in their lives!!??!! for you dimwits who dont know what it is (dont worry i still love you) its the light blue short sleeved top with two pockets and shoulder pads and a pair of dark blue pants with a belt completed with a pair of black shoes. now you know.

SO WHY ON THIS GREEN EARTH DO PEOPLE STARE LIKE I'M WEARING THE AL-QAEDA UNIFORM!!!??!! and it was friggin incessant staring on the NEL!! and even in town when i got there! and furthermore can you blinkin asses look at the floor at the yellow lines onthe platform that says to give way to alighting passengers??? its like a scrum in a damn rugby match. minus me being able to make you keel over in pain!! ugh...

and just when i think SINGAPOREANS ARE SO..SO...
i get a surprise.a pleasant surprise

after battling rush hour crowds to secure a boxful of chocolatey treats, i decide to accompany the girlfriend (who was so nice as to accompany me in the first place) to eat dinner at the wisma foodcourt (oneofdabestinspore) and at the top of the escalator, i held the door open for her while sht stepped in, and i saw another lady a couple of metres behind me. so i stood there for an added second for her as well. (i do this our of habit) AND SHE SAID THANKS!!! most SINGAPOREANS walk on like i am paid to open the door for them!! sad sad culture.sigh...
and then after the eating, in my excitement, i accidentally spill the drink on the table,some of which rolls off onto my lap and i jerked the chair back suddenly. and the lady behind me didnt glare at me like i expected! she said "no,no dont worry abt it" and rushed (RUSHED) to get her tissue pack out and offered me the whole thing!!

wouldn't you know...
SINGAPOREANS REALLY ARE SO..SO...

this is a brilliant production//

2007-05-16T21:41:00.000+08:00

ADDICTIVE DANCING PASSION..

OLA!!!

finally my laptop stopped freakin out and granted me internet access! haha...thank God!anyway..about the weeken: absolutely fantastic man!!

it begins on friday night as soon as one knocks of from work right? haha..dashed home and dashed out again to meet the girlfriend for dinner at asian kitchen (and yes i eat the same safe thing all the time) and then, we stumbled across this amazing band playin at the esplanade, TEMPERED MENTAL, an amazing three piece band with guitar solos that make your hair stand. then awaitin the arrival of dennis and vanessa where we drove to Timbre to find a mile long queue! calling Shawn who was already there (predictable) wasnt good enough cuz he was bummin of a friends table which was alrd full!!! argh...SO we went to east coast for supper and by twelve plus the bloody place was almost all closed!! but what the heck...thats friday night

saturday!!!flew by so damn fast man!!

morning to town with the girlfriend to get my hair done and buy a shirt, which wasnt easily done! hahha..and then dennis decided to meet us, and as usual he couldnt navigate to town!! hha..fast forward>> started rainin i got soaked and ugh!!

dinner with the extended family at a restaurant called the garden slug! hahah...disgusting name!

and then the highlight of the weekend: vanessa turns 19 at the ministry of sound, featuring general midi on the decks (kickass beats). great company great drinks great music. fantastic combination... let the pics talk! ohohohoh..i saw FABIO!! ahahahah

me and the birhtday girl and the dennis

QH the birthday girl and me

me and yun

QH and me

and that folks...was the amazing weekend. spending my time lookin to the weekend.

THIS HAS BEEN A BRILLIANT PRODUCTION//

2007-05-08T19:35:00.000+08:00

oh yes..for those who need to know, above lies mambojambo at zouk and dennis me gillian amanda left to right. cutsey shit and dennis shud be the bouncer instead. haha..cheers!

2007-05-08T19:15:00.000+08:00

wellohwellohwellohwell...

spend most of the week lookin forward to the end and when the wkend comes it seems to fly in a blur.everyone could do with 72hr weekends huh? so it makes sense to plan very carefully to utilise every millisecond of the precious friday night till sunday night? bored random musings...

when you go to the army you learn alot of life changing skills:
you learn to look at the clock/your watch in between seconds
never has three alphabets meant so much to you (ORD)
never has a date been soooo anticipated (refer above)
you learn to act busy all the time
you learn the fine art of "chao keng" (it should be a degree course at laselle)
you learn that your weekends are precious gifts from God
you learn to treasure the company of women
you learn to appreciate your girlfriend
you learn that to look like you're not in the army you cannot:

wear a polo tee out
tuck in the front of your t shirt into ur jeans
fold the bottom of your jeans
wear black plastic framed specs
have very short hair
hang out with other very short haired guys
wear the damn free shoe they give you (NB or brooks)

and you learn alot of life changing things. well...maybe i learn more as a clerk! ahahaha...

hope you had fun readin this ***t.

THIS IS A BRILLIANT PRODUCTION//

2007-05-05T14:53:00.000+08:00

it is soooo uncanny. to see him and talk about mundane and stupid stuff like we've just met, as if we've never seen each other before. after all we've been through. after all we KNOW. its just weird.

does society disapprove of homosexuality because homos are seen as????? whats the word? or is it simply that society disapproves of homosexuality and similar gender relations because it has not been around long enough? society has become increasingly accepting and comfortable with issues and instances that previously (i speak in a span of the last 60-70 years) were seen as "yuck" and were usually spoken about with a "oh my gosh". when dyed hair first hit the consumer market in say 1997 in large sclaes, the conservatists were like "eeeew" what is that how can someone do that? OH I MUST ADD THAT THE SOCIETY I REFER TO IS SINGAPORE and all the radicals, the rebels, the anti conformiists jumped on the band wagon on the road to multi coloured hair. today, do i need say more? everyone (less sec/pri skool students and ns men) has their hair dyed!! whether to maintain its black lustre or to add a dose of styly to their getup.

want another example of how society has changed to becomming more accepting, lets look at the art f body piercing and tattooing. once upon a time only the BAD PEOPLE and "rejects" of society had these things and they were to be abhored and almost always simultaneously associated to crime. and society deemed these things as "if you want to be a respectable person in society" you didnt have them, simple as that.
and noww......i know of teachers who have multiple piercings and tattoos (albeit of his children's names) i have relatives who have multiple piercings and tattoos too!

but i think the main point here is that society realises that superficialites are mutually exclusive when it comes to a person and what the person really is. inside. and thats what matters eventually. i mean there are these two guys whoese bodies are covered in tattoos, besides their necks and their hands and faces. everything else is art! and they're studying medcine!!! does that mean when they graduate they will be LESSER doctor than the others? obviously not!!!! the eyes of society have opened to the truth. but there will always remain the mocking glances i guess? some people never change. read that slowly, i said some people, not society. society will change, its whether you want to remain disillusioned, or get along with it.

and from way back where i talked about homosexuals, i'm not gonna say much about it, i want you to come up with your own theories. what do you think? what would society say abt this in ten yrs? or twenty? is the pattern repetitive and universally applicable to s'pore? or would they feel like differences keep things ________________ .

another thought for you: DOES SINGAPORE'S CULTURE, AND HENCE SOCIETY, CLOSELY FOLLOW THAT OF AMERICA, OR DOES IT MIRROR THE PATTERNS OF THE MASS MEDIA (WHICH AMERICA HAS A STRONG HOLD ON). OR IS IT SOMETHING ELSE?

this is a brilliant production//

2007-05-03T18:12:00.000+08:00

.PEOPLE LIKE US ARE NOT MEANT FOR THE ARMY

melisabellyn
gosh..stop talkin on your blogs/tagboards and talk face to face for sdhfkjh sake!!!
you want to know the only damn reason why you three manage to get so bloody worked up and angry about the whole issue!!??!! its because ya'll care so mfdinvid much for each other!!!
i dare you to give me another reason!!!

dont say its because its what each party said or did, because you only get very angry when there is an element of truth in what was said.you only get down trodden on by the other party's actions because your hopes were very close to your heart. is there another reason??!!?? maybe you want to disagree with me for whatever dmiu reason.i dont care. what i'm sayin makes sense. and you know it. i dont want to hear your reply, i want to see if you have the kndihjn dignity to do what you know is right. each one of you owes an apology. and get of your bloody high horses.

"who is he to say all this? who does he think he is? what gives him the right to say all this?"
want an answer? i have known the three of you for approx two years. some more, some less. and i have seen all three of you at low, low points. and i have seen all three of you cry. can? so i probably have a degree of understanding of the way you three think. and i KNOW how duknein much you three LOVE each other. can? dont get angry with me, you know how true the things i am saying are. and you know that i love the three of you very very much. and its very diuced up to see the three of you like this. i'm not taking sides. truth be told, isabel has said narrow minded stuff, she is in no way innocent. and i take no sides.

remember what you all said about weddings?
and the truth is, guys dont matter.

THIS IS A BRILLIANT PRODUCTION

2007-05-02T21:01:00.000+08:00

monday night shouldnt have ended.
tuesday could have done us a favour and stayed home.
wednesday=change.
and thursday brings new __________.

THIS IS A BRILLIANT PRODUCTION//

2007-04-30T14:38:00.000+08:00

helloooo....

a mid summer night's breeze. a very relaxing weeken, no dancing, just good bands, good company and good food and good drinks. acid bar at pernakan place is highly recommended, the 2 piece band is awesome, the guy sings plays guitar and the drums all at the same time.its good.

and a mid summer night's breeze. a new found hangout at pasir ris, quaint and by the beach. perfect ambience and good drinks. (now that dennis has a bottle of chivas there...haha)
albeit they cannot stop flowing the emo songs, which isnt always appropriate. so yeah..

and simpang is always recommended as well! haha...
bob's house tonight!!!

P.S. run out of saliva

2007-04-26T18:30:00.000+08:00

BOUNCE BOUNCE BOUNCE!!!

velvet's new sound system is kick ass man! the bass was vibrating my t shirt! hahaha...and just because andrew chow remains a beat dropping genius ( minus the few glitches like you're beautiful) we danced till the end and walked out with that altogether familiar buzzing sound in the ears. mambo two weeeks in a row, shud keep this up! hahaha...

but here's a public service announcement, zouk shud have dance lessons for the morons who packe the floor and waste the space. some move like they have ants in their pants. others move like theyre listening to some song that the rest of us cant hear and some move like the only thing alive on them is their crotch! ugh... dammit just get drunk ppl, and stay of the floor, and leave it fer the rest of the dance-able people!!!! thank you very much fer your kind co-operation. the management will remain blissfully pleased.

anyhow, gilian and dennis and amanda were a fun grp to dance and be with..whiskey dry and vodka coke and heinekken. poison of the night.

cheers...

2007-04-25T17:12:00.000+08:00

gd day gd day...

have to announce this to the world, yst after having dinner with the girlfriend at serangoon central ( near her hse cuz she was sick) we were walkin back when jasmine tye walked pass. and i didnt even friggin realise it was her! because she's like soooooo short and quite fat man! all that stuff in the papers is false advertising! and then the appearances on tv are super deceptive cuz they make her 'look' tall. DAMN...airbrush artists shud be makina shitload of cash! and to those who dont realise, miss jasmine was one of the finalists fer singapore idol. yeaps...

rain rain go away
come again another day
let the children mambo today
hahaha...

somone asked me where mambo is today!!! can u believe that? after studyin in spore fer ages...hahahaha...oh well. to the person, i still love you. hahaha

P.S. run out of saliva

2007-04-24T23:51:00.000+08:00

hey hey!!!! hi world...
what a relaxing start to the week of still not having to go to work and enjoying life. this is the way it sould be man!!!
sunday was a lazy affair with a relaxed breakfast that began later than noon and then chilling with the guys and sending commandos back to work! hahaha...

monday came and passed, removed the stitches, and fetched a very sick person from town and back home (not much to say there)

to mambo or not to mambo tmr?? that is the question. well oh well...
friends again.

regards

2007-04-21T16:18:00.000+08:00

WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!

WEDNESDAY NIGHT AT ZOUK!
THURSDAY NIGHT AT EAST COAST!!
FRIDAY NIGHT AT HOLLAND V!!!

THIS IS THE LIFE MAN!!!!

anyhow, having to rest at home because of the opertion is made better by the friends who have to go out because i heard that you can get bed sores after sittin on your ass too long! ahahah..thats why you need to get up and shake it once in awhile.

apologies to raj and kenny and all the ' i put my hands up and see the stars in the sky' mambo jumbo people, but that sorta thingaint fer me. and just because andrew chow is beat droppin genius, we bump and grind at phuture. cant believe i missed the executioners at zouk last night, but oh well...all zouk and no play makes jack a dull boy right? hahaha...
and fancy bumpin into rachel two nights in a row, first at zouk on wed, and then in geylang on thursday night, where she 'claimed' she was heading fer durians. hahahaha...

friday night began at holland v and ended at changi v! hahaha...cruising arnd tarannies is a sight fer ____________ eyes. (couldnt think of the word myself) anywyas, the band at wala wala cafe is indeed all that it promised to be, and after hearing incessantly from the gf that the band is great, i liked it tooo...oh oh oh! the drinks there are cheap too man. jim beam one for one and five jap beers fer 35 bucks is a pretty gd deal yeah? anyhow,

am i turning into one of those people who post stuff abt daily activities? i hope not...

ANYHOW, today is SATURDAY!!!!!! lets see where the wi nd blows tonight!
i'm lovin' it!

p.s. run out saliva (alot of steam left)

muahahaha....